Why is this so hard?

I am tired. I am tired of trying to figure it out I am tired of living paycheck to paycheck, I am tired of struggling I'm tired of handling all of this shit at once. I'm tired of thinking about others happiness and wellness. I'm tired of these complex ass systems, I'm just tired of having to be the "good example" all the time.  I am tired. I am just tired.  I am just trying to advance in my career...I am just trying to be a better Myisha. Why is this so hard?